The full Moon in Cancer, which peaked on Jan. 4, 2015, is opposite the Sun in Capricorn. This is our security access, Cancer representing emotional stability and Capricorn, our career and reputation. What do you want on an emotional level? Is your partner giving you everything you deserve? How are your finances? How is your career? Are you getting paid an amount worthy of the effort you put in? What do you need to feel secure, happy and stable at home and at work?
Cancer is the 4th sign of the zodiac, it’s the nurturing mother but also, the unconscious child. Here’s great example I took from Tom Lescher’s e-book: Aries rushes in and crashes the plane. Taurus survives, checks its body and realizes it’s alive. Phew! Gemini goes and sees what kinds of supplies it can find, communicates with the direct environment, and finally Cancer takes those supplies and builds a shelter.
Cancers adore creating a beautiful home to live in. They need a stable home environment to feel secure. They’re very protective and nurturing, and like a mother, very accepting of others’ emotions. Out of all the signs, they feel the most. Ruled by the moon, they’re deeply emotional, intuitive creatures. They don’t shy away from someone having an emotional breakdown. They’ve been through many themselves… and can relate.
On the upside, Cancer realizes it’s extremely emotional and learns how to master its emotions. When this happens, Cancers can develop an amazing sense of humour, which is usually sarcastic. They know they’re super emotional, they know that what their expressing isn’t always logical, and with practice, they can learn how to laugh at themselves to cope!
On the downside, Cancer can be a little self-absorbed, caught up in their own myopic world, caught up in their feelings, unaware of how their emotions are affecting other people. This is when Cancer turns into the unconscious child. The Cancer has to realize that just because it feels everything, that doesn’t mean that everyone else does.
A balanced Cancer is a beautiful sight to behold. Cancers make wonderful actors. The amount of emotional depth they can express uninhibitedly is absolutely breathtaking to watch. A balanced Cancer knows when to take time out. Cancer needs its alone time in its shell, its cave, to process its emotions.
For this full moon, expect a lot of emotions to be coming up to the surface for you to feel. And don’t shy away from them. Emotions make us human and are our greatest indicators of what we truly want and need for this life. Things that are blocking you from feeling emotionally and financially secure will be coming up to the forefront of your consciousness.
What is keeping you from feeling truly joyful?
For me, I’ve been realizing that happiness has been getting in the way of feeling and expressing my true joy. The Capricorn Sun has been bringing up thoughts about all things I “need” to feel complete, to feel empowered, to feel stable. All the things I don’t have, which I want. All the things I could be in the future, which will “make me happy.”
As a society, we’re programed to believe that things outside ourselves will make us happier, more complete beings. We’ve turned into happiness robots, seeking one thrill after another to feel pleasure. But pleasure inevitably always turns to pain. The thing that brings us happiness today will be something out of fashion tomorrow, something that no longer serves to gratify our egos. And so the search continues, the suffering continues.
But it never ends until you choose to stop searching. Until you realize that nothing outside you is going to bring you more joy than you already have within you.
The Capricorn Sun will show you what you are “missing” and the Cancer moon is going to allow you to feel that lack. Take this as a golden opportunity not to seek further, but to shed. Let go of that which you “need” to feel complete. Let go of the lies you tell yourself to feel secure in this unstable world. Let go of the need to seek external pleasures and ask yourself what’s left over.
Joy. Peace. Bliss. An awareness that will never leave you that requires nothing to feel complete.
Pluto, our personal power, is coupled with the Sun in Capricorn. Uranus, the awakener, is in Aries in a T-square with the Moon and Sun. These energies are intense. The truth about what you need in your relationship and career is going to slap you in the face until you wake up.
For me, this has come in the form of letting go of imaginary futures. Along with Saturn in Sagittarius, I haven’t been able to hide from the truth that the present moment is all I’m ever going to have. Continuing to feed my mind is not only blocking me from true joy, but also true creativity. I’ve learned that in order to evolve, I have to let go of attachments and outcomes and appreciate what I have now.
Nobody has it better, no matter how much they try to prove it with egoic actions. Everybody is here having a human experience. Everybody experiences pain. No one is exempt from the learning we experience through emotions. Everyone on this plant longs to feel loved. Longs for the perfect partner. Feels loneliness that ultimately stems from separating from Source consciousness.
It’s time we all stop looking outside ourselves for approval and acceptance. It’s time we stop comparing ourselves to others and realize that doing so keeps us trapped in separation, in delusion, in suffering.
Love what you have now. The place you’re in, you’re in for a reason and it’s up to you to dive in to find out what that reason is. Celebrate your unique vibration and know that there’s someone out there looking in on your life, browsing through your pictures, comparing themselves to you, calling your life “perfect.” The grass is always greener on the other side…
To cope with the overly emotional Cancer moon, I’ve been painting, plunging into my emotions to understand them and learn from them. I encourage you to find an outlet that allows you to do the same. Dance, sing, play, laugh and dream.
And don’t be afraid to cry. Purge what no longer serves you and make room for the glorious new.
My e-course, Find Your Life Purpose: Align Your Desires With Your Destiny, has commenced and to wrap it up, I hosted a Google+ chat with a couple of my amazing students:
Do you ever look back on your life and realize all those “negative” moments from your past were actually there to help you evolve? Does it dawn over you that you were always in the exact place you needed to be for your evolution?
Recently this happened to me… again. I was thinking about my previous work places and how at every single job I went to (and there were many) the same pattern kept recurring: I would get curious about a person and want to connect to them on a core level. I wanted to talk to them about spirituality and astrology, but I never did. I held back for fear of looking strange, for fear of losing my job, and the list goes on.
Eventually, after the third time this happened, I realized this pattern wasn’t going to go away until I took action. I realized life was trying to push me forward, so firstly, I forgave myself. I forgave myself for not taking action up until this point. And I let go. Thinking and planning about what to say and when had gotten me nowhere. My excessive never-ending thoughts had kept me locked in fear, locked in time, locked in ego. As soon as I had the courage to let go, to surrender to the unknown, I was free to speak easily. With my mind out of the way, my words bubbled up effortlessly. What had been trapped inside my heart for so long had finally been released.
As soon as I spoke my mind, I realized I had passed my own test. The way things transpired were completely different than my mind thought they were going to happen. In fact, everything was much easier. It struck me instantly that I, with my endless thinking and planning, was the one who was overcomplicating things yet again. Life was simple. Life was easy. It was me thinking it was difficult that was making it so.
I’m not sure if I was simply satisfied with my progression and felt no need to be working for “normal” 9-5 job anymore, (actually it was 7:30-4) or if it was the stars giving me the extra push I needed, but I left my workplace and decided that I was done hiding from my purpose, hiding from the person I knew I was inside.
The pressure I felt, the depression even, after leaving yet another job was intense at first. Old thoughts floated up to the surface of my perception, became my reality for a bit: I couldn’t cut it again, I’m not good enough, I’m not normal, I don’t fit in, etc. But without pressure, we don’t evolve. And some of us more stubborn creatures need quite a bit of pressure to transform.
And so it was pain that pushed me forward. The pain of not living in alignment with my truth. I decided that no matter how scary it was, I had to start living for me, doing what I needed to do here, regardless of what anybody thought.
Following My Passion
This huge shift occurred within my consciousness, right after I thought I was done with my learning! Right after I thought I had it all figured out. Boy was I proven wrong and glad for it.
After I left my last workplace, I began my Qigong studies. Opening up my channels and allowing energy to flow where previously it had been stifled, not only had an effect on my physical health, but crossed over to my external world as well. I noticed that as I purged toxic qi from my body, toxic thoughts and situations were being purged from my life too.
My energy healing studies was something I had put off for a long time. I’m quite not sure why. Maybe it just didn’t feel right to begin until I was fully prepared on all levels. But as soon as I started my practice I knew that I was doing something totally in line with what my soul wanted to be doing here on Earth. I had found my calling, so to speak.
I felt an excitement for my life, for the moment, that I had lost for a while. Once again I felt like a child, eager to study, to learn and to play. Time was no longer an issue. My intense presence allowed life to work through me. Because I was doing what I came here to do, the universe was conspiring to help me and it thanked me in the form of an idea.
A few weeks ago as I was relaxing, not in my mind at all, the idea struck me: coach people using astrology. It was so evident to me that this was a part of my path. For years on end, at all the various workplaces I attended, all I ever wanted to do was connect to people, to guide them.
It was only when I decided to stop worrying and over-planning my life, that I could hear the voice of my Higher Wisdom. It was only when I stopped trying to force things that life started to work for me.
A major theme for the current life I’m living has been: let go. I’ve come to understand that there’s more power in relinquishing control over the moment. So no matter how delicious it feels to think about the past or plan for the future, I’ve been refraining. I know that thinking keeps me locked in time and locked in fear. It feeds my ego, feeds the part of me that desires pain and separation, the part of me that needs to feel separate to feel in control.
I’ve come to understand, once again, that the mind is truly fragmented and insatiable. The more you feed it, the hungrier it gets. The more you think, the less you live. The power you feel from thinking isn’t true power nor control, just a never-ending waste of energy and precious life.
So I invite you to try out this radical idea with me: Accept what IS entirely. Stop fighting the moment you’re in. Stop resisting what IS. What could be more insane than fighting what’s happening to you in the Now, the only place you’ll ever be? How can life work through you, how can you learn your lessons, if you’re blocking yourself constantly with thought? You can’t… is the plain and simple answer.
True bliss comes from within. True power, from beyond the mind entirely. Our society is extremely sick after having been forced in school for years on end to think ALL DAY. We’ve been brainwashed and indoctrinated to believe that this is normal and healthy, but it’s not. And the state of world, of the environment and its people, proves this.
How You Can Actually Create Change
Fighting against the system, going to endless protests, in my opinion doesn’t solve much. It keeps us locked in the state of fear that the rulers of our world use to keep us enslaved. Fighting against one another, no matter how justified it seems, is still feeding the very thing that keeps us from reaching our highest potential. Focusing on the pain of the world and being emotionally triggered by the drama here is exactly what the elite of this world desire for you. If you’re distracted, enraged, separate from your fellow man, if you have an enemy, you’re all that much easier to control. True change starts within and is manifested without.
If you want a better world, stop complaining about it. Stop feeding the negativity that is so delightful to your ego. Stop judging your fellow humans. Stop the separation. Know deeply that there is no competition. There is no winning in this game that we all seem to love playing. When you identify with mind, with your ego, you will never find peace. You will never be satisfied and in your power.
So as difficult as it to simply let things be as they are, you must. Taking action from this state will create the change we so desperately need on this planet if we want to go on living.
In truth, every moment you HAVE chosen. Accept it entirely and enjoy.
The full moon in Gemini happening on Dec. 6th, 2014 is opposite the sun in Sagittarius. This is our mental access, Gemini representing the lower mind, and Sagittarius, the higher mind. Airy Gemini rules communication. Gemini seeks to interact with its direct environment. It seeks to learn everything it can about its environment so it can stay current. A Gemini wants to be in the know and often this includes technology. Geminis will constantly be searching for the latest and greatest gadgets. They want to stay connected. The bigger picture doesn’t matter so much to them. It’s all about what’s hot right now.
Whereas Gemini is seeing the next rock and jumping to it, then seeing the next rock and jumping to that, Sagittarius is seeing the entire lake and the beautiful countryside on the other side of that lake. It’s moving to that countryside and creating a community there. The key for this full moon is to find a balance between these two energies. Information will be flowing in quickly. Expect grand ideas and lots of communication. Expect understanding and enlightenment through deep philosophical talks. Expect laughter and giggles from joking around with loved ones. The Gemini energy is changeable and fun. Geminis are so changeable and love to talk so much that they can enter into any conversation and lighten it up with a joke.
Allow this full moon to illuminate your desires for connection. How do you want to connect to others? What do you need to communicate to feel stable, happy and secure? Are you reaching out to others or are you spending more time in seclusion. The time to speak is now! If there’s been anything you’ve been holding onto, go ahead and open your mouth. The right words will come pouring out. Say what you’ve been too afraid to say. Language will be eloquent and effortless for a while.
Once you’ve said what you’ve needed to or thought out what you’ve needed to with the elevated mental awareness you’re receiving, then consider branching out. How can you take your brilliant ideas and give back to your world? How do you want to contribute to a better future? What community would you build if you could build one? Who would you invite to live with you? Envision your perfect world. Use your mental clarity to inspire others.
Expect the Unexpected!
Jupiter goes retrograde Dec. 8th, 2014 and stays there until April 8th, 2015. All the outer growth and expansion you’ve been seeing over the last few months will once again be turned inward. Expect deep introspection and inner alchemy.
Uranus in Aries and Pluto in Capricorn have been squared since Nov. 26th, 2014 and will stay that way until Dec. 27th, 2014. Squares are a hard aspect that cause energy to be pulled in two separate ways, but ultimately can bring further insight, growth and new talents. Uranus is revolution and Pluto is evolution. This square is causing huge transformation. If you’re an Aries, expect the urge to make bold decisions. You have the power to revolutionize your world. Capricorns, expect change on a different scale. Losing and letting go of things to make room for the new. Cancer and Libra, grand changes are in the works for you as well.
Uranus shocks with sudden change. It forces us to change by showing us things we’ve never seen before. Pluto transforms us through death, the death of loved ones, the death of ego, the death of relationships and former selves that no longer serve us.
For me this shock has come in the form of having to witness a loved one extremely ill. I’ve had to surrender to the fact that I can’t save everyone and it’s not my job to. Death is inevitable and not something to be feared.
Pluto, the cosmic control freak, the planet of death and rebirth, has shown me that death is just as natural and normal as living. Without it there would be no evolution nor growth. Welcome death on a daily basis: the death of your past, the death of your ego, the death of what no longer serves you.
Let go and allow the intense changes to occur and trust you’re being Divinely guided to where you need to be. Create space in your life for miracles. Relish in the unknown and the strange.
You didn’t come to Earth because it was going to be easy. You knew it was going to be difficult and emotionally taxing, but deep down you know you can handle everything you’re presented with.
Remain present and do what you can in the moment. Nothing else matters but right Now.
There have been a couple times in my life where I have been extremely activated and emotionally triggered by other people. Some of these occurrences were pleasurable and others... not so much at all.
Meditating has allowed me to clearly see all that is… not me. It has allowed me to strip away the layers of fear, guilt and shame that I was taught as a child to hold onto to survive in this world. It has enabled me to cast aside delusional ideas about who and what I am. Ultimately, it has cleared space for me to get connected to the truth: I am not my body, I am not my clothes, I am not my possessions, I am not an image that I have to keep up with, I am not my mind.
The practice of watching my mind has allowed me to tame it, to hush it when I need to. I’ve come to understand that all suffering does truly come from mind identification. When thinking stops, suffering stops. What’s left over? Peace, bliss, consciousness. The moment. Pure being in the moment, a connectedness to life.
By maintaining a more intimate relationship with my true self, I’ve been able to feel a more immense love and gratitude for my existence. The more I’ve learned to love myself, the more love I’ve drawn into my reality.
Soul Group + Star Family Members
Uninhibited self-love has brought me more accurate reflections of who I am into my life. This has come in the form of soul group and star family members. Meeting these kindred spirits has been overwhelmingly exciting and joyous.
Encountering close souls often feels like you’re meeting an old friend or family member. There’s an instant recognition followed by a full on emotional response within your entire body. At least, that what happens to me! Because the person makes you feel so happy, of course you want to spend time with them. A desire to get to know the person can turn into an obsession. It can be a lot like falling in love.
Of course you don’t need the other person to be happy. After all, they’re just parts of you that you’re grateful for. The other person isn’t going to complete you, but being around them, it can sure feel that way. Just as with a romantic relationship, we can delude ourselves into thinking that this new person is going to bring us into unity. All our problems will vanish. And they do for a bit. The other person is so wonderful to us that we narrow all our attention onto them. They help bring us into presence, into a unified state. But when the “honeymoon phase” wears off and we start to see the other person’s bad habits, we start to make bad associations about that person. With enough bad associations, love can quickly turn to hate. We part and are left alone once more in separation. And the search for unity continues…
But the search never ends. When we look outside ourselves for love, we find it, but it’s taken from us just as easily. What we’ve come to call “love relationships” are nothing more than a bunch of good associations. In truth, no one can complete us. We are already unified, whole. We can experience love at any moment by choosing to enter into it fully. And it’s up to us to GIVE joy, love and peace to the moment. No moment, no person, no place, nothing will ever bring us the love that we’re seeking. We already are that love.
The mind will continually trick you into believing that something outside yourself will bring you more love, but it’s a delusion. A temporal, unstable form of pleasure that will always turn to pain.
That being said, when you do meet someone from your soul group, and you will if you ask for it, remember that you don’t need that person to be happy. Enjoy the rush of emotion meeting the person brings, but don’t get lost in the chaos and forget about yourself.
If you choose the spiritual path, expect there to be some bumps on your evolutionary road. Choosing to consciously evolve means taking a look at your shadow aspects so you can learn how to work with them. This learning often comes in the form of another person. An enemy, if you will.
The people in my life who have emotionally triggered me to feel anger and pain were my greatest teachers. They’ve showed me parts of myself I’ve failed to recognize on my own.
Remember that if you’re feeling a strong aversion to someone or something, there’s always a reason. There’s always learning there. Often you’ll find that the person you’re feeling the aversion to is helping you clear karma. They’re showing you past ways of being that weren’t so pleasant. Showing you parts of yourself that aren’t so pretty. To deal with your shadow self being presented to you in the form of another, remember to breathe. Breathe down deep into your body. Feel the aliveness within your being, crawling from the tips of your toes to the crown of your head. Feel the aliveness all around you. Stay present by observing your environment and your mind. And forgive yourself. Forgive your enemies. Let go and move on. The only thing that matters is Now.
Past Life Friends
Sometimes old friends from other lifetimes will cross your path. When this has happened to me, the sensation in my body has been so overwhelming that I’ve felt the need to suppress my joy, fearing others would “see too much of me,” which obviously made things even more difficult.
When you run into a past life friends expect to feel extremely drawn to the person. Expect to feel extremely energized, excited and activated around them. Expect uncontrollable laughter. Expect to feel a little nuts actually!
To cope with the temporary insanity, talk. Talk to the person and tell them how you feel. You don’t have to make a grand proclamation of your affection for them, but if they truly are affecting you, tell them. Tell them you’re happy they’re here. Tell them whatever you need to. Don’t hold back for fear of saying something inappropriate. Trust that whatever comes out of your mouth is appropriate for the moment. Even if it’s “wrong” your friend will obviously forgive you because they’ve known you for so long!
Often when we meet a past life friend, the feeling is so overwhelming that we end up saying or doing nothing about it. Because we’ve been so conditioned by our society to act like robots, feeling and expressing such an intensity of emotion for no apparent reason is often called “crazy”. I’m here to tell you to throw the rules out the window. By now the majority of the population hopefully can see that our society is completely dysfunctional. Remaining sane in this world is insanity.
Follow your heart and screw the rules. Create your own rules to live by. Step outside the box you’ve been told to live in. Step outside the mind you’ve been told to stay in ALL DAY. Drift. Daydream. Explore. Step into unknown territory. And if you feel happy, shout it from the rooftops. Piss people off with your excitement for your beautiful existence. They’ll thank you later. ;)
You came here to live. Not to think of living.